I WAS LIVING MY LIFE ACCORDING TO SOMEONE ELSE’S DEFINITION OF SUCCESS
Go to school (go into debt), get a career and climb the career ladder (sell your soul to pay off debt), get married, buy a house (more debt), start a family, go on vacation once or twice a year, retire and then focus on doing what you love.
This is what most of us have come to believe we SHOULD want or SHOULD do only to find that following this path to so-called success leaves us feeling trapped or like something major is missing in our lives.
The truth is that not everyone is meant to spend 40 hours a week in an office to live the American Dream.
In fact, I would go as far to say that deep down most people don’t really want this life (even if they think they do).
But what are the alternatives?
This is certainly not the life for me.
I started on this path and I remember a time when I ‘took a break’ from college because I didn’t like it and felt that college wasn’t for me but was told that I was too smart not to get a degree.
When the time came for my student loan payments to kick in I still hadn’t figured out what to do or found any alternatives so I bit the bullet and went back to college.
Two degrees later and two years into my successful career as the Program Coordinator at a University I found myself feeling a lot of things; unfulfilled and unsatisfied, lost, insecure, and unhappy.
I ended up feeling depressed like I was going through the motions of life each day with little passion or direction.
Same shit, different day.
I felt like I had sold my soul to pay off my student loan debt.
I asked myself:
”Is this really it? There’s got to be more to life than this.”
"But what are the alternatives for someone like me?”
The alternatives that I knew of at the time didn’t look (or feel) much better to me.
I now realize that I had to experience this lifestyle to realize that this wasn’t for me, for those of you into Law of Attraction it took this contrasting experience to see that this is not what I wanted which helped me to start to get clear on what I did want.
I was unhappy because I didn’t want a career I wanted to live my life purpose which wasn’t carved out in a clear career path.
I wanted to share my message, gifts, and talents with the world.
I wanted to make a difference.
I wanted to go to bed excited for the next day and wake up excited to do what made my soul feel most alive.
I wanted more.
"But how?" I asked myself.
"How could I make this happen?"
This is where my quest for deeper meaning began.
First I went within.
I practiced yoga, received Reiki practitioner attunements, attended my first sacred plant medicine ceremony, worked with crystals and yoni eggs, got a yoga teacher certification, focused on astrology and the list continues.
I spent a lot of time reading spiritual self-help and personal development blogs and watching YouTube videos for inspiration to get me through the workday and on the weekends I’d binge watch spiritual self-help videos searching for some sort of answer or the next step to get me to the life of freedom I dreamed of.
One day the pain to remain a slave to my student loans grew greater than the pain to change and I decided to quit my job to travel to Costa Rica and teach yoga.
This is when the external journey began.
Travel is what truly opened my eyes to the infinite possibilities that exist for our lives, for each and every one of us.
I couldn't have discovered all of this sitting behind a desk working for someone else.
I had to find it, discover it, and see it for myself.
It took quite the journey to where I am today but now I’m back on track with my own unique life path and purpose, living life on my terms not according to someone else’s definition of success; traveling, teaching yoga, leading retreats and workshops and helping others to do the same.
I’m here to help others on this journey to self-discovery.
If you’re feeling stuck, lost or directionless I’d love to help guide you back to your inner compass to follow your heart in the direction of your dreams.
Does any of this resonate with you?
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